Heard a story just the other day

2012-02-23T21:39:00.001+08:00

can i say i miss you?

2012-02-07T23:15:00.003+08:00

mad you gotta stop worrying. it gets you to nowhere.

why not start believing for an extraordinary and building up your faith?

i got to stop worrying. its so annoying that once you start worrying, you wont stop.

idiot much.

2012-01-31T23:09:00.001+08:00

3 days.

2012-01-25T14:05:00.000+08:00

i hate it i hate it i hate it.

hate it hate it.

2012-01-20T23:16:00.001+08:00

not to fade away.

2012-01-20T22:00:00.001+08:00

GOODNESS i wanna learn this!

2012-01-19T22:31:00.001+08:00

that video really brightened up my dayyyy!
and sorry for not buying your favourite m&ms ):
goodnight!
i really lovvvveeeee the video! (:

2012-01-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

Jesus, thank You so much (':
Lord i pray for your strength.
Pray You will heal my sickness.

2012-01-16T22:53:00.001+08:00

God be here. i cant stop all these tears from falling anymore.
i dont want all this to come back to me )':
Lord, stop it. i had enough.
Jesus. help me to overcome this.
gimme Your strength.

2012-01-15T08:10:00.000+08:00

'when someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. you know that your name is safe in their mouth.'

2012-01-14T22:45:00.005+08:00

"madeline, I'm here, i just right here. wrapping my arms around you. no matter what happens, my arms will never ever let you go. I am Your Emmanuel, I have got everything you need. My presence is right here, why wont you come and dwell into my presence."

"why do you always keep wandering around for answers? cant you see I'm just right in front of you? I Am your answer to your life, but why my dear daughter, you still choose to wander away from Me? Why you kept looking around for answers but not Me? whatever you're struggling now, I will always be here for you."

Lord, gimme the childlike faith, gimme Your strength once again.
thank You Lord for Your touch tonight, nothing can ever compare how much You mean to me.
im sorry Lord for being rebellious and wanting to only depend on myself.

having Your presence here is like a river, flowing through me, washing away all of my sins.
as the church sang "Let It Flow" i can feel Your presence, flowing through me. that kind of feeling, that i have not had it for a period of time. crying throughout worship and alter call. and honestly, i cant contain! tears rolling down my cheeks, and i cant control it no matter how hard i tried! Your presence is so real, i can feel the power flowing through me, instantly, i could feel you taking all my worries, sorrows, burdens, sins away. how thankful can i be? that You Lord, are the best medicine that i can always have. Jesus, i wanna say that i want more of You.

thank You Lord for speaking, touching me tonight, im so grateful that You're always here for me. forgive me for what i have done. hey, no matter what your struggling with in your life, make a stand and choose to hold onto Him. and never will He ever let you fall again. you dont know how precious you are to God. He loves you, He really do. He will not leave you. God is so so so amazing. and Lord, i just leave my future into Your hands.

there's so much things that im thankful for. i just dont know how to put it in words!
as long as God knows is more than enough (:

goodnight all (:

2012-01-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

friday the 13th was a good day! (:

2012-01-12T22:03:00.001+08:00

)':

2012-01-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

stop wasting time ans make wise decisions.
and no turning back, or backing out, no giving up.
no!

2012-01-10T23:59:00.001+08:00

Jesus, i pray that You'll do Your work through my life.
though it may seem really hard, i pray for Your faith and wisdom
upon my life.
thank You for the touch tonight.
crying out all of my sorrows to You.
i pray that whatever steps im gonna take, You'll be by my side guiding me through.
pray that whatever decisions i made will be the right choice.
even if its impossible, but Lord with You all things are possible.
let me be a great testimony among my family and friends.
'You are my strength, strength like no other.'
and i will say, by Your Grace i wouldnt have come thus far! (:

2012-01-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

no words can ever describe how much i cherish these group of precious friend in my life.
they are the ones who i can turn to whenever im down.
thank You Jesus, for blessing me with such great friends. (':
xx

BOOK IN LO!

2012-01-09T23:59:00.001+08:00

'today is the day! we will be glad and rejoice in it!'
brand new season of your life!

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
-Matthew 6:34

go, and win souls for God!
jiayou and God bless!
will definitely miss you (:
*MEGA VIRTUAL HUG*
xx

you will always be my favourite.

2012-01-06T23:53:00.003+08:00

thank you for this day today, that awesome time we've spent together.
sorry that i cried cause i really couldnt hold back my tears ):
i will really miss you very very much. so much.
although i know im stupid to open up the back cover of the camera, but still im gonna love every picture we took (:
i will never do that again. losing so much precious pictures ):
i just cant find those words to say, how much i really really love you.
i hope you do too (:
'booking in' in 3 days time. enjoy the time you have left!
spent it well and meaningful! let it be a wonderful memory you've ever had in your life!
keep that memory close, very close to your heart ♡
i love you. xx

2012-01-06T00:10:00.003+08:00

thinking about the future makes me wanna cry.

i better think carefully what i wanna do.

before i regret. im not getting any younger! like duh.

cause life is gonna be hard for my generation.

but i know God has greater plans for me.

first i need to start off what i really wanna do and start praying about it too.

was thinking to futher my studies! like take o levels?

hey, seriously if i can migrate i would definitely love to, without hesitation.

without a stupid cert you cant go anywhere.

guys please study hard dont be like me.

i really regretted alot that i didnt study hard during my ite days.

i cant even go to higher nitec. this is so embarassing.

everytime people asked me, what am i doing now? i really cant tell them

that i failed my exams and couldnt futher my

studies. or i will just tell them im working.

asking me whether if im studying or not in the future, i just told them no.

i have already admit that im defeated. i feel like giving up.

but i cant, i need to push myself for a better future.

i cant go on like this anymore.

ya my english sucks cause i suck at it.

new testament

2012-01-05T11:30:00.001+08:00

1. Start a Bible reading plan. Read through the Bible at least once this year!

2. Set a time to DAILY encounter Jesus each morning

3. Take some time to write down what God is calling you to do this year. Review it weekly

4. Get more involved in Church. What need can you fill?

5. Make a list of people you are believing to see saved this year and pray for them daily!

6. Initiate more meetings with your leader/pastor this year

7. Make room in your schedule to disciple new believers

8. Determine to be different. Don't get stuck where you were last year.. change!

9. Let go of the past. Forgive. Forget. Move on. It's a new day!

10. hit the ground running! Set your sights on your goals and start going for it!

2012-01-05T00:20:00.003+08:00

some random post here.
its gonna be hard when the one you love is going away for a
year.
but at least i know he does it for God (:
of course im not gonna object about this!
i do want the both of us to grow more in the Lord, and stronger too (:

things im gonna miss the most are:
your hugs
your smile
your jokes
your laughter
your company
your sms
your kisses
your shoulder
your arms, falling asleep into your arms
your smell
you

i will wait for you (:
i hope that the love we have wont change a thing!
i'll be a better person!

2012-01-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

“The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.”

2012-01-03T01:03:00.002+08:00

there's so much things i wanna say.

but i just couldn't put it into words to say it.

i dunno how to express it.

2012-01-03T00:34:00.001+08:00

how should i celebrate my birthday?

cause usually i dont really 'celebrate' my birthday.

hahaha, kk night. (:

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

happy new year!

God bless all of you! (:

2011-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

spent really well at the end of my 2011.

i want 2012 to be a better year. (:

2011-12-30T15:32:00.001+08:00

one more day to end 2011. are you ready?

2011-12-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER (:

2011-12-27T23:31:00.002+08:00

2011-12-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONEEEE (:

2011-12-23T23:04:00.003+08:00

you know what?

having to hear such harsh words, hurts the most.

especially from your loved ones.

nobody is perfect.

2011-12-23T10:07:00.001+08:00

busy week this week! and two days more to christmassss!

what do you want for christmas?

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. -Psalms 46:1

2011-12-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

whenever you miss someone look at the sky, although you might not see the person there but feel happy that you two are under the same sky.

2011-12-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

3 weeks.

2011-12-14T22:57:00.001+08:00

what the heck am i doing?

im such an idiot.

sorry to disappoint.

2011-12-13T19:56:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna lose you.

2011-12-10T15:39:00.001+08:00

such an irritating world, annoying very annoying.
i wanna get out of here.

2011-12-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

hi love,

thank you so much for everything baby.

i really do love you a lot and im so sorry for doubting you too.

just want you to know that no matter what happens, i will always be here for you! (:

lets stay strong and pray for our relationship too!

xoxo.

2011-11-29T13:27:00.000+08:00

You are deserving
Of all the praises Lord
And I am yearning
To be in Your presence once more
Deep inside my heart is burning
I want to give You more
For You're the only one that I adore

How great You are
How great You are
You are the mighty King
And You've come to reign in me

How great You are
How great You are
I give You all the praises of my heart

2011-11-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

mad why why why why why are you like this?
stop it. please. )':
be strong.

2011-11-26T23:25:00.003+08:00

before today endddds, just wanna say something (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PAPA AND DEAREST!
both of you are the best thing in my life (:
pray that may the both of you continue to desire God for more of what God had instored for you!
always pray and seek God more!
in whatever situation, trust Him and only Him!
xoxo.

2011-11-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE DAY BABY ONE MORE DAY (:
i loveeeeeeee you! ❥

2011-11-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

whyyyyy am i so weak ):
im afraid something might happen to me ):

anywayssssss
2 MORE DAYS TO YOUR BIRTHDAYYYY! (:
goodnight (:

2011-11-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

READ THIS READ THIS READ THIS
READ THIS READ THIS READ THIS
READ THIS READ THIS READ THIS
READ THIS READ THIS READ THIS
READ THIS READ THIS READ THIS

3 days more till your bigggggg day darling!
thank you for inviting me over to shoppppp with your dearest mama face! (:
i love you! rest more and sleep early!
BE STRONGGGGG
cause you are a fighter! (:
xx

2011-11-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
4 days more to your big day!
immortals is not bad, go watch!
thanks for accompanying me today sweetheart!
goodnight and i love you! (:

ps// my first day of work
pps// dearest promise i will make time for you alright, please dont be upset cause im busy with work ): and of course i do wanna spend my time with you! dont get me wrong (:

2011-11-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

6 days more! (:
thank You Jesus for Your touch today!

2011-11-18T20:58:00.002+08:00

had a great time with my dearest girls!
i love this heart to heart talk with them! its been so long since we talked so much!
i really hope we can still hang out more often! until we growwwww old!
i love you girls! xoxo.

2011-11-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

exactly 10 days more till your birthday! (:
i hope you really like the prezzie! :D

2011-11-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

hello dearest i hope you've enjoyed your early birthday celebration today! (:
i love you so so so much!

it's time

2011-11-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

Be aware of how you're spending your time.Are u pursuing ur passion? Are u doing wat u are good at naturally? If not, why don't u make some changes? Time is short. Find one thing that you're passionate about and start giving urself to it. And God will lead u one step at a time.

2011-11-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

awesome time spent with my dearest (:

2011-11-10T20:42:00.002+08:00

today i had a pretty bad day, or i can just say i had the worst day of my life.
my colleague ask me to go have lunch with him cause he said he need to talk to me.
i was like omggggg something must be wrong.
yesssss indeeeeeed ): he told me boss sacked me, with immediate effect.
after i heard all these i was totally shocked! my heart sunk all the way down to my stomach );
whyyyyyyyyyy! called boss and the reason she told me is that "oh my position got nothing much to do thats why we want to stop this position for now." HELLOOOOOOO i was planning to stay here till next year! now everything is RUINED.
i was very angry and upset at the same time. i was crying really badly while i was talking to my boss.
i was already sensing something wasnt right cause these few days there's quite a number of people called in for job interview and yeah my heart was like "oh no gg for now."
dunno what i did wrong either. there is another of my colleague got sacked without any valid reason, he too was shocked.
like how can they do this? its not fair at all. c'mon boss please try to put yourself into our shoes please.
i really love my job and my wonderful colleagues ):
life goes onnnnnnn! definitely gonna miss the fun times i had!
take care my fellow lovey doveyyyy colleagues! (:

ps// hey! maybe God has greater plans for me? who knows! (:

dreams

2011-11-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

Before you were born, God saw you, and He endowed you with gifts and talents uniquely for you. He's given you ideas and creativity, as well as specific areas in which you can excel. Why, then, do so many people today feel unfulfilled in their lives, merely going to work at some mundane job, trying to earn a living, stuck in a career they don't like? The answer is simple: They are not pursuing the dreams and desires God has placed within their hearts.

go for it!!! God is here! (:

2011-11-09T12:22:00.001+08:00

True love isnt just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid.

as we grow older, our life will be filled with busyness ): how i wish i can turn back time, esp my sec school life! i will treasure it more! i miss my fellow mayflowerians ): how have you guys been? (:

2011-11-06T22:57:00.003+08:00

hellooooooooooooo November come too soon!
cant wait for x'mas! (:'

PS// 20 more days!

2011-10-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

i love you so so much!!! (:
goodnight.

2011-10-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

its a malay song, i like her dance man!

2011-10-13T23:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA FACE!
ALWAYS LOVE YOU (:

2011-10-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

O.M.G.

2011-10-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

<3<3<3

2011-10-07T18:04:00.000+08:00

"From now till then let us grow and be each other's strength =)"

awwwww, so sweet! ♥

2011-10-07T16:21:00.000+08:00

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

2011-10-06T23:34:00.001+08:00

Smiling to myself whenever i think of us (:
goodnight

2011-10-06T07:30:00.000+08:00

“Morning without you is a dwindled dawn.”

2011-10-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

it hurts alot knowing that we cannot be as close as how we used to be ):

2011-10-05T23:11:00.001+08:00

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2011-10-05T11:08:00.000+08:00

“You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together.”

2011-10-05T07:09:00.000+08:00

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

2011-10-04T22:17:00.002+08:00

"And i have no fear, i know we'll make it through."
thank you sweetheart, that's so sweet of you (':
i will grow stronger, and always be there for you no matter what or wherever you are. <3

2011-10-04T20:56:00.001+08:00

DEAR JESUS, empty me of all that is not of YOU and fill me with the fruit of the Holy Spirit. Clear my mind and open my heart to understand Your Word. Guide me by Your wisdom and truth. Cleanse me with Your Heavenly love. Keep my heart and forgive my soul. May your light shine forth from my face. Let me breathe in Your trust and breathe out fear. Hear my prayer, Lord Jesus.

2011-10-04T13:31:00.001+08:00

second day and still coping well.
im still not getting used to it by not wa-ing youuuuu.
hope your doing fineeeee (:
XOXO.

2011-10-04T12:00:00.000+08:00

“Two people in love, alone, isolated from the world, that's beautiful.”
― Milan Kundera

2011-10-03T14:51:00.000+08:00

gonna treat you good food on your birthday ❤

2011-10-03T14:23:00.001+08:00

When you really love somebody, it's not just for now, it's not just for a second; when you really love somebody, it's really for forever.

2011-10-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

i will wait for you. ❤

2011-09-22T21:28:00.003+08:00

i was an avatar last night.
loving my new app! (:
goodnight everybody!
sabbath week is gonna end soon!

2011-09-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

i cant contain it anymore HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
super epic sia dude!

2011-09-15T21:15:00.003+08:00

hai i pang sai less than a minute, you know? so cool right? i know.
work was not bad! people there are nice and really gotta thank God for such an awesome colleagues! (:
i miss shopping, miss hanging out with my friends, miss eating good food, miss watching movies, miss going to primary school and do relief teaching, miss my good times i once had before i started working! hiak hiak hiak.
i wanna save many many money and buy lots of stuffs and study hard and get a super good job with a super good pay.
but first, i needa know which course really interest me lah! ):
pray pray pray pray pray. God help me! (:
good night! and its TGIF tomorrow!
i can say its quite fast huh? ADIOS!

2011-09-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

hey hey everybody!
happy lantern's festival! (:
had an awesome day today woohoooooo!
i cant wait for my work! some ulu place!
Lord please protect me before and after work everyday!
hope this job will be fun? yeah hopefully!
everybody have a blessed week ahead! xoxo
goodnight Jesus and everyoneeeee! ^^

2011-09-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

just some random post!
had really great time spending my time with my friends once again.
i miss them so much! its been so long since i last met them!
what i can say is my friends are always here. ALWAYS.
no matter what happens they will always be here to cheer me up and make me laugh.
like my crazy bunch of people that i love never regret knowing them! xoxo.
they really made my day! its been so long since i last hung out with them.
it feels good to be back once again. i'd love to hang out with them once again.

OWL LAH.

2011-09-04T08:11:00.001+08:00

GOOD MORNING EVERYBODYYYYYY!

facts about me

2011-09-03T00:12:00.015+08:00

1 i have to change my bedsheet once a week if not i will feel very disgusted
2 i have a calender that would let me write things onto it, like a mini journal. its a must for me to write if not i will messed up what i did for yesterday's and today's. messed up alot of times.
3 i must put body lotion everyyyyy night if not i feel weird and uncomfortable.
4 when i wear contact lens, i must wear a pair geeky spectacle
5 i like to shop alone
6 i have insonmia, i will wake up at weird timings, like can be 3am, 4am+++, 6am+++ and always go back to sleep, then waking up again ): anddddd i will really have bad attitudes, throwing tantrums around. like very dao towards people. i will get pissed off easily. ): when i dont have enough sleep. and that will happen!
7 when im alone, i will blast the music out loud and dance to the beat (stupid moves! i will make myself laugh too)
8 I dont take showers in the morning or whichever time i wake up
9 im very ticklish, like everywhere.
10 you can make me laugh very easily. yes whichever way you wanna put it. i will laugh at almost anything
11 i cant stand it when people compliment me, i will get annoyed. i seriously cant take compliments AT ALL.
12 when im in a crowded place(shopping mall etc), my head will start to spin like giddy spells, i cant take the crowds. i got so used to it that i dont even care, i will just endure it. there's a lot of times i felt like fainting, but i just kinda stay like strong? i dont really tell my friends cause not much of help either. like what can my friends do man! dont want them to worry so yeah.

2011-08-30T22:11:00.001+08:00

awesome time spent with my dearest double chin!
i miss you! (:
its really cool on how we became best friends through my brother! ^^

2011-08-30T01:56:00.002+08:00

and my dearest ashley is pregnant!
wondering how many puppies shes gonna have!
3-4 of them? cant waitttt!
so weird to see a very small dog to get pregnant!
sooooo cute, i love you ashley

2011-08-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

glad that everything is alright now!
so we are cool people now (:
goodnight!

2011-08-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

a true friend that will always be there for me.
thats all i need.

2011-08-28T12:43:00.001+08:00

You saw me today. You saw me carrying that heavy burden on my shoulders and when You gently offered to carry it for me, it broke Your heart when I refused and said I could handle it on my own. Whether I could or not, You didn’t want me to, because You knew it would weigh me down until it couldn’t anymore.
Every time I stumbled, You helped me back upon my feet, even though I pushed you away, still insisting I was fine on my own.
As I took my focus from You, depended on my own strength and ignored You when You called out to me, I became more and more weakened and distressed with every step I took. I kept falling over, Dad. I kept taking steps back. I kept stopping, insisting I couldn’t go a step further. “Darling, I’m here. Let me carry this heavy load. Let me carry You through these thorns. Soar with me above this storm. Keep your focus on Me. Listen to My voice as I remind you of My promises. You’re not alone, sweetheart. I can see you struggling, so let Me help you. Please? Let me be your strength when you are weak.” I sat there for a while, dwelling in the lies of the enemy. ‘I can’t do it. I want to die. I need to. I’m worthless. I’m unlovable and unacceptable. No one cares. I’ve lost everyone.’… I went on and on, not even noticing that with every lie that passed my lips, you gained a scar. As I looked at your torn up body, I realised that You had already paid the price to set me free from believing such lies.
Even though You were hurting so much, You opened up Your arms and held me so tight. As I looked up at You, You had that familiar warm, gentle, loving smile and You said “It’s going to be ok, darling. I’m here. We’ll make it through.”
Once again I was reminded that even though our friendships, relationships, circumstances and situations all change… You remain the same. There is no where I can go to escape Your love. There is no pit too deep that You cannot reach down to pull me out of. There is no where I can run or hide from Your protection. You’ll never let me go, even if I stop fighting for myself for a little while, You never will.

2011-08-24T10:47:00.001+08:00

i dont even know what to do now ):
im so confused ):
im all alone now, fighting against this war.

2011-08-22T01:49:00.000+08:00

hi there, i miss talking to you my dear friend. i really do.

2011-08-21T08:08:00.002+08:00

im falling apart with God.
im lost, my hope is lost. why?
why am i doing this to myself?
am i happy being this way?
well i have to say this honestly, no.
but then why am i still doing this?
why cant i be as strong as how i used to be?
Jesus, i need You. i need to encounter You.
i dont wanna stay this way anymore, i feel like giving up soon.
i am so tired of myself being this way.
i cant seem to find a way to resolve this.
explosion explosion explosion.

2011-08-19T22:53:00.005+08:00

You are the only One i can turn to Lord.
there's no one else is here for me, accept You.
i dont wanna feel lonely anymore, i cant take it no more.
when will this ever end. ):
i dont know me anymore, am i still me?

2011-08-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

its killing me.
Lord i need You, please take all these away please.

2011-08-15T14:39:00.003+08:00

hai, im feeling so much better now. (:
its the best way for us!
but i feel like hitting something, to release it. or just scream my heart out.

2011-08-12T23:12:00.002+08:00

Lord help me ): i dont wanna care anymore
its all my fault urghhhhhh

2011-08-12T14:22:00.001+08:00

my feeling right now is like a urghhhhhhhhhhhhh (@#*@^$&@#$)(@*#_)@#*(@$&
hate this feeling, so annoying! spoil my mood.
pang sai.

2011-08-12T14:14:00.000+08:00

what is forgiveness to you?

2011-08-12T03:38:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh. thats all i wanna say.

2011-08-09T00:50:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! (:
God has been good to Singapore for 46 years!
God love Singapore! And so do we!
God really blessed Singapore wayyyy a lot! ^^
God bless everyone! YAYYYYYYYY!

2011-08-07T02:19:00.001+08:00

i hate to say this, i feel lonely at times.
not being able to hang out with my friends due to their busy schedules.
or maybe i think i tend to think too much.
its 220am and im still awake, gonna be a zombie on a sunday morning.

2011-07-29T15:25:00.000+08:00

Hi blogger, i miss you!
Its been a long long time since i last updated (:
Chaos!