Cant forget.

Oh yeah.

EXACTLY ONE MORE WEEK TO 180.
C'MON LET ME HEARRRRRRRRR YOUUUUUUUUUU SCREAMMMMMMMMMMM

Woohoo went to Laselle yesterday !
The school's really really really nice !
All the students there's really cool !
Hahahaha their dressing like woahhhhhhhhhhhh !!
How i wish i can be a fashion designer but nah.

On 25th May:

Happy bird day to wei chen and pastor jeremy seaward !
Blessed bird day ! (:

Reen gave all the girls flowers ! (:
Yay ! She came to support us hahahaha.
And my nails were bleeding inside ):
While i was dancing, i tripped my nails. *OUCH*
Nothing much lah hahahaha.
My blog is like super boring i know.
Goodnight and rest well ! Tomorrow got dance practice. <3

HAPPY BIRD DAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO IDA
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO YOU !
Dearest ! Happy bird day ! I miss you very very very much ! (:

Wooooooooooooo im super tired, cough is back.
And !!!!!!!!! God please watch over my brother while he's in Thailand for his army training.
Also his gang too ! Amen ^^

Saturday:
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO SHAKINAH
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO YOU
Sorry i couldn't celebrate your bird day on Saturday !
You know i love you right ? <:

Friday:
Fashion disaster was soooooooooo awesome !
Hahahahahaha ! (:

Thursday:
We practice our dance.
And showed it to Pam !
Anddddddddddddd we kinda choreograph some steps again hehehehehehehehehe
Went back home @ 2am. Drained out.

God, my hope is in You.
I'm sorry that I was trying to rush my prayers and trying to get answers asap.
Sorry that I'm impatient.
Lord, i know i wont be lonely.
I'm sorry that my love for you started to fade away.
God I'm sorry, You sacrifice so much for me, and i took it for granted.
My pride has pulled me down.
God, my prayers would be answered one day.
All i have to do is wait, and be patient.
Forgive me.

At times, I would always feel that I'm all alone.
At times, I would always feel that I'm not loved.
At times, I would always feel that why am I even living in this world.
At times, I would always feel that I would never ever make it through.
At times, I would always feel that I'm worrying too much.
At times, I would always feel that life is always unfair to me.
At times, I would always feel that I'm really really tired of everything.
At times, I would always feel the fear I have in me.
Too much.

But God, You know what always keep me going on and not giving up ?
The reason is You.
Your always there for me. These feelings is way better than what I've been expected.
God, I wanna feel that I'm worth living in this world for You all over again.
Forgive me God.

I will fight a good fight for You.
And glorify Your Name on high.

I don't wanna buy any clothes online anymore.
Sucks.

And like please, if you dont wanna buy my items anymore just say.
DONT GO MIA LIKE SERIOUSLY.
IM SICK OF IT.
LIKE YOU THINK THIS IS HIDE AND SEEK ?
HELLO, I'M NOT THAT FREE TO PLAY GAMES WITH YOU.
Dont wanna buy just say, stupid excuses like i'll pay tmr, i'll get my money tmr, gimme more time to transfer, i'll meet you some other time, hp batt low etc, wont work !!!!!!!!!!!!!
#^$#*&$)!(&$#%T^#&$)!#*)@$
Irritating shitz.

I just don't understand that why can't i make such simple decisions for myself.
Ending up getting confused, do you feel the same way too ?
I don't know. I don't know. God help me.

God, Your always here.
I know i won't be lonely anymore.
Thank You for this life You've given to me, be it good or bad.
I am so blessed.

I know God, whenever I fall, You'll always catch me.
My refuge.

180 would turn up to be awesome.
With so much practices we had.
It's all worth it, cause it is to glorify You God. (:
Win or lose, it doesn't matter anymore !

No matter how life is crashing you down.
Remember that there's always an awesome God who'll never let you down.
He'll always be willing to listen to your burdens.
Never will He find excuses saying that, "Sorry I'm busy today, shall listen to your prayers some other time."
My God is a faithful God, whom always keep His promises.
He never fails to love and never forsake us.
See what i meant ?
Ever since God came into my life, everything turns really awesome.
Like whatever you do, He'll always be there for you and constantly reminding you that He's always here whenever you need Him.
Such feelings, is really hard to explain.
You'll know, when you allow Him to come into your life.
You'll never stop wanting this love He has for you, you yearn more and more and more....
Ultimate blessings etc.

I can find peace in Him.
I can find comfort in Him.
I can find a healer in Him.
I can find happiness in Him.
I can find protection in Him.
I can find a purpose in Him.
I can find love in Him.

What more can you ask for ?

HAPPY MOM'S DAY !
I LOVE YOU MA.

Thank God that I'm feeling so much better (:
He spoke to me through the Gospel.
I shall cast all my anxieties to You, because you care for me !
Amen !

Brokenness and hurts, still here.
Come and take it all away from me Lord.

No matter what I've said, all of you won't believe me.
Then what for i explain so much ?
Why is this so hard ? So hard for me ?
Life's such a challenge, once you give up everything's gone. Gone.
Tears just start rolling down my cheeks. I just can't hold on anymore.
God, be here with me, I know You will. Amen.