awesome time spent with my dearest double chin!
i miss you! (:
its really cool on how we became best friends through my brother! ^^

and my dearest ashley is pregnant!
wondering how many puppies shes gonna have!
3-4 of them? cant waitttt!
so weird to see a very small dog to get pregnant!
sooooo cute, i love you ashley

glad that everything is alright now!
so we are cool people now (:
goodnight!

a true friend that will always be there for me.
thats all i need.

You saw me today. You saw me carrying that heavy burden on my shoulders and when You gently offered to carry it for me, it broke Your heart when I refused and said I could handle it on my own. Whether I could or not, You didn’t want me to, because You knew it would weigh me down until it couldn’t anymore.
Every time I stumbled, You helped me back upon my feet, even though I pushed you away, still insisting I was fine on my own.
As I took my focus from You, depended on my own strength and ignored You when You called out to me, I became more and more weakened and distressed with every step I took. I kept falling over, Dad. I kept taking steps back. I kept stopping, insisting I couldn’t go a step further. “Darling, I’m here. Let me carry this heavy load. Let me carry You through these thorns. Soar with me above this storm. Keep your focus on Me. Listen to My voice as I remind you of My promises. You’re not alone, sweetheart. I can see you struggling, so let Me help you. Please? Let me be your strength when you are weak.” I sat there for a while, dwelling in the lies of the enemy. ‘I can’t do it. I want to die. I need to. I’m worthless. I’m unlovable and unacceptable. No one cares. I’ve lost everyone.’… I went on and on, not even noticing that with every lie that passed my lips, you gained a scar. As I looked at your torn up body, I realised that You had already paid the price to set me free from believing such lies.
Even though You were hurting so much, You opened up Your arms and held me so tight. As I looked up at You, You had that familiar warm, gentle, loving smile and You said “It’s going to be ok, darling. I’m here. We’ll make it through.”
Once again I was reminded that even though our friendships, relationships, circumstances and situations all change… You remain the same. There is no where I can go to escape Your love. There is no pit too deep that You cannot reach down to pull me out of. There is no where I can run or hide from Your protection. You’ll never let me go, even if I stop fighting for myself for a little while, You never will.

i dont even know what to do now ):
im so confused ):
im all alone now, fighting against this war.

hi there, i miss talking to you my dear friend. i really do.

im falling apart with God.
im lost, my hope is lost. why?
why am i doing this to myself?
am i happy being this way?
well i have to say this honestly, no.
but then why am i still doing this?
why cant i be as strong as how i used to be?
Jesus, i need You. i need to encounter You.
i dont wanna stay this way anymore, i feel like giving up soon.
i am so tired of myself being this way.
i cant seem to find a way to resolve this.
explosion explosion explosion.

You are the only One i can turn to Lord.
there's no one else is here for me, accept You.
i dont wanna feel lonely anymore, i cant take it no more.
when will this ever end. ):
i dont know me anymore, am i still me?

its killing me.
Lord i need You, please take all these away please.

hai, im feeling so much better now. (:
its the best way for us!
but i feel like hitting something, to release it. or just scream my heart out.

Lord help me ): i dont wanna care anymore
its all my fault urghhhhhh

my feeling right now is like a urghhhhhhhhhhhhh (@#*@^$&@#$)(@*#_)@#*(@$&
hate this feeling, so annoying! spoil my mood.
pang sai.

what is forgiveness to you?

oh my gosh. thats all i wanna say.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! (:
God has been good to Singapore for 46 years!
God love Singapore! And so do we!
God really blessed Singapore wayyyy a lot! ^^
God bless everyone! YAYYYYYYYY!

i hate to say this, i feel lonely at times.
not being able to hang out with my friends due to their busy schedules.
or maybe i think i tend to think too much.
its 220am and im still awake, gonna be a zombie on a sunday morning.