“I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time.”

“No, we don’t always feel like worshiping, but think about this, you have air in your lungs, your heart is pumping blood, your kidneys are filtering tons of deadly poisons out of your blood. We have every reason to worship and not just those six songs on Sunday. Worship is our lives.”

today after evening service, pastor jeremy seaward came up and talk to me! we had a great conversation, cause i was super nervous cause caucasians makes me very happy whenever i talk to them omg sounds cheasy, and also he knew that i wad 'away' for a long time, he was wuite concern with me and asked me how have i been and stuff like this. we had a greattttt talk, he was like my friend when i talk to him i mean like he really cares about you even though he is so busy with so many of the youths!

and also pastor lily came overto hug me and said 'glad that you came back'
i was like whoa how did you know? okay maybe cause she's the pastor and she have the rights to know about our life?? but anyways, i feel loved, my friends too, didnt know that they really love me and cares for me and worry for me too! yeah now i know, i am not alone....

its hard to get back up once again but i believe with God's help, i can do it! i will be stronger (:
fight till the end!!! amen!

'falling in love makes you happy. being loved in return brings you happiness words can't explain.'

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(:

im always here to support you!
always! no matter how bad the past or situation may be, i will never leave you!
i've got your back darling (:
cause we all have our past!
i love you dear! always keeping you in my prayers!
be safe <3

beautiful prayer from another dear friend of mine!

"In tough times, LORD,
let me stay motivated
and calm.

Let me look
at how far i have come,
rather than how far i still
have to go.

Let me continue counting
my blessings, and not what i have been missing.

May every day bring
new chances to grow,
new beautiful things to see,
new plans to do,
new goals to pursue,
as every new day is God's
miracle day. Amen."

a very dear friend of mine sang this song to me last night.

I'm coming home, coming home. Coming home, home to you.
Feel your love, once again,
oh its so wonderful.
I've ran away, gone my way.
And I'm lost without you.
I'm coming home, home to you.
Oh lord, I love you.
Though I'm away, you're always there. Keeping watch over me.
And when I fall, you hold my hand. Leading me back to you.
I'm coming home, coming home. Coming home, home to you.
Its so nice to be with you,
oh lord I love you.
It's so nice to be with you,
I'm coming home, home to you.

cant help but to cry (':
thanka dear for everything.
i dont know what else to say but to thank God that i have found such precious friends in my life, and this friendship will last till we grow old, forever (':

my kind of commimucation with God is through people.
but i really wanna hear His voice one day with my own ears (:
soon soon! God you heard me? heeheehee

'even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord will hold me close.'
Psalm 27:10

I thank You, Father, that You see not just where I am today, but the potential for where I can be tomorrow. Even if other people reject me, I know that I am accepted in heavenly places. I know that I am wholeheartedly accepted by You!

"Don't follow your heart, because your heart can be deceived; you got to LEAD your heart."

saw this on twitter, most of the people tweeted this during the evening service.
friends talked about this to me.
and having that faith once again.
saying things like i am not facing this alone, they are always here to help me. always.
i was trying to hard to avoid, to run, dont give a heck about it.
but i just cant seem to run away to what God is trying to say to me.
He spoke through my family, my friends.
it was speaking to me at the point of time, but i kept ignoring.
God didnt give up on what He really wants to tell me.
He let me see His words through twitter, facebook and sms.
and then these verse really spoke to me in isaiah 35:3-7, it says:

'strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to those with fearful hearts, “be strong, do not fear;your God will come, he will come with vengeance;with divine retributionhe will come to save you.” then will the eyes of the blind be openedand the ears of the deaf unstopped. then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. water will gush forth in the wildernessand streams in the desert. the burning sand will become a pool, the thirsty ground bubbling springs.In the haunts where jackals once lay, grass and reeds and papyrus will grow.'

i was spiritually dry. and i know every season we will have a struggle in our lives. during this season, i felt like i couldnt make it anymore. i dont wanna move on anymore. let me just lead my own life, and just leave me alone. but my friends didnt give up on me. they showed me that what can faith do in our lives. yes, it may be hard but Jesus wont let me bear the things that i cant bear. who says being a christian is easy? it never was. so many people in the bible suffered so much, but God manage to pull them through. so why am i doing this? honestly, im just making myself, my life, more miserable.
and now i understand. i wont give up. no matter how tough my life is gonna be i know its gonna be worth it to prepare me for the future, my future. i may not know where is He gonna take me, but i just wanna have that childlike faith once again to believe in God.

and here i am to say im truly sorry for what ive done to my family, friends and most of all, God.
sorry to disappoint.
cause i thought running away was the best solution.
it never was, just gonna make things worst!
thank God for such awesome friends that never fail to encourage me (even though i totally ignored them but yet they still choose to sms me anyway)
tell me, where can i find such God loving friends?
well i have alot of them, and i will definitely cherish each and everyone of them (:
thank you all so much for not giving up on me.
this i know! that they are my real true friends.
bucking up in progress...... (:

so hard, to fight this feelings away...

i just dont what things to change.
not to think about it.
i hate bad dreams, nightmares.

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hahaha miss you!

awwww gonna have that in the future for sure!